Man. This…This is me.
Always willing to be taught, a product of Sunday school/youth group/church academia, always willing to start a bible study or attend a conference…nothing wrong with these but I learned it’s an incomplete process.
Only WHEN I take those beliefs and make them my own…getting real about my personal faith in both the public and private life that I truly come alive.
Do I really believe what I really believe??
Can I be courageous at every bend knowing He will be with me wherever I go? That my sins have been forgiven as far as the east is from the west the moment I cried out to him…all of them? Even the unspeakable ones?
Will I trust that my God shall supply all my needs according to His riches and glory?
When I don’t understand and there’s pain and confusion can I rest in the peace that His ways are higher than my ways?
Can I trust in His perfect timing and His goodness when walking “thru” the valley and not just let it be lip service?
Do I believe that every careless word of mine will be brought under judgement in the end?
There are times that I can easily count when the beliefs in my head did not penetrate my heart and what I said I believed I never had the faith to LIVE it out. As a result and will always be the result, I felt empty, alone, in guilt and without hope because I had more faith in fear than in My God’s promise. Then there are times where I’ve watched mountains move and giants fall by simply believing what I knew to be true but never had the faith to walk boldly in His name and banner ….and this is the life abundant. Fighting the good fight of faith, not our own flesh or feeling.
Taking him at His word and showing Himself to be true and living out the abundant life…and behind the Victor who goes before us and lives in us. Greater is He and greater we can be because of it.
“The sermons of Jesus Christ are meant for your will and your conscience, not for your head. If you dispute these verses from the Sermon on the Mount with your head, you will dull the appeal to your heart.” -My utmost for His highest by Oswald Chambers July 1